It's not been an easy month. I guess I didn't want to come back to blogging but I guess I might as well.

My grandma has passed on been about almost a month now. I miss her tremendously. Leukemia, diabetes she fought hard. She fell down, was admitted and 1 week afterwards her kidneys failed.

Mustered enough cash to send my mom to visit her. She died 3 days later.

Just 2 weeks before - my granduncle died (dad's side). So now there are no more granduncles on my dad's side.

And I have no grandparents anymore. Mama was my dear and only grandma. 5 years ago I sent her to KLIA and been meaning to visit her ever since. Now she's gone and I can't see her again.

Last week, Mel's niece passed away. She was only 23/24.

I've had enough of death to last this whole year. Everything has died this month.

Mama was the symbol of the previous generation. She was the strength and symbol of youth for the grandchildren.

Now we have to finally grow up. I don't know what to express in this blog or what to say. I don't care who reads this or not.

I miss mama. I love u mama.